Depression thread

[Chet]

I guess that it might help to think that you are capable of these those things; and surely this will pass.

[peacocks]

to Anne and RL! It's so great that you are able to be there for her, Anne. Don't be too hard on yourself. I hope your friend gets through this and that her support group grows a little! Even having one other person to talk to would probably help. I went through a much less severe thing the summer after freshman year of college and I had 2 friends confront me "we've noticed you've been really sad lately, what's up" and just them asking made me feel tons better.

RL! I hope that doctor guy can help you, all that stuff sounds really painful!

[Anne the Man]

Yeah I hung out with her last night and I'm pretty sure I don't need to be as stressed as I was when I wrote that. She is a fighter, I should've remembered this, because she does have insane levels of positivity. I didn't quite manage to communicate that I need her to have separate friends, but sort of did. I just don't want to have her ALWAYS AROUND when I move to her suburb. Hmm. Tricky business.

[G.C.R]

I knew hanging out couldn't be as bad as you were anticipating. I know you know this, but do remember not to take on all that responsibility for looking after her - either because you're a good person and want to help out, or because she's making you shoulder it all. Big love to you.

[Chet]

Having a bit of  dip in form. Not liking it at all.

[clare]

Bugger. That's no fun Chet. I used to find that the cyclic 'heading down' feelings added to the general spiral downwards, for a couple of years until I got used to it. (I'd get anxious that the feelings meant I was heading into a depressive phase, and the anxiety would contribute to the depression)

[peacocks]

Don't fret Chet! Sending you hugs through atmospheric sound vibrations, I hope you can feel them.

[Chet]

Bugger. That's no fun Chet. I used to find that the cyclic 'heading down' feelings added to the general spiral downwards, for a couple of years until I got used to it. (I'd get anxious that the feelings meant I was heading into a depressive phase, and the anxiety would contribute to the depression)

Yeah, there's the thing where what could just be a general everyday occurence of a low mood becomes much more ominious, because yr fretful that it's the start of another episode.

Things aren't too great right now though, tired all the time and feeling low and anxious, not able to concentrate on anything.

And thanks peacocks.

[milly balgeary]

Man my bosnian muscle friend leaned on me at work today when I was sitting and my fucking back is KILLING me. I am icing it, but I am hobbling around with a fucking pool stick and shit. It ain't cool. I am DEPRESSED. I took some vicodin I keep on hand for situations. Thank lord.

[RavingLunatic]

Things aren't too great right now though, tired all the time and feeling low and anxious, not able to concentrate on anything.

I feel for you, Chet. That's exactly where I am  much of the time, though minus the anxiety.

Back pain is never fun, Milly. Dude must've leaned on you pretty hard. He probably ought to be the one supplying the Vicodin.

[cold before sunrise]

i'm depressed too! should i snort a line of percocet? what do you think?

[Thermofusion]

I hear Greg is sellin perx

[G.C.R]

i don't normally meet 17 year olds who are so fucking cool I want to be their friend and have them look up to me as a neat and fun older person, but I met one last year, my friend's sister. She is so great and talented, and dryly funny and we've hung out a few times and smoked a million cigarettes and talked about feminism and Slayer. She fucking rocks. And she's in the High Dependency Unit because of her anorexia right now and damn why am I writing about stuff that's making me cry in the library on the first day of term.

[Chet]

really sorry to hear that, that's super lame.

go see her.

[Anne the Man]

i don't normally meet 17 year olds who are so fucking cool I want to be their friend and have them look up to me as a neat and fun older person, but I met one last year, my friend's sister. She is so great and talented, and dryly funny and we've hung out a few times and smoked a million cigarettes and talked about feminism and Slayer. She fucking rocks. And she's in the High Dependency Unit because of her anorexia right now and damn why am I writing about stuff that's making me cry in the library on the first day of term.

Oh Jesus, poor girl. She sounded super cool when you told me about her.   and all, and that to whichever friend it was (I forget).

[Little Sixes Little Nines]

ugh i hate everything someone please stab me in the face

[peacocks]

no thanks

[coldforge]

Ugh. Aversion and depression have definitely settled in this week. Becoming a religious renunciate is once again becoming very appealing.

[peacocks]

Aw, been there cf.  Hope you feel better soon.

[Chet]

Hey, CF, I remembered your message from before, and I really, deeply appreciated it. I'm here if you need someone neutral to talk to. Just hit me up.

[RavingLunatic]

Fuck, man, I didn't know you struggled with that stuff, CF. Your endless supply of LPTJ wit lends an air of imperturbable invincibility I suppose.  Hope things get better, dude.

[coldforge]

Ha! That's a very kind thing to say. Thanks for the support, folks. I am as susceptible to the vicissitudes of brain chemistry as the best of them, I'm afraid. That and I do not like my job, not at all.

[jm]

Yeah, seriously, man. (Xpost - that was meant to echo the previous statement directed at cf)

Also the depression has been hitting me really hard lately, especially when it comes to my creative pursuits - I've managed to write, in my life, one piece of music. None with words. I have (I'm going to estimate) 50 or so pieces that I've started in the last six years and none of them has an ending, and most of them not even a second section. And I am nothing if not a shitty instrumentalist.

Now I just feel like I've been making a huge fool of myself all this time, convincing myself and trying to convince others that making music is So Important to my life, when it's pretty clear that I just don't really have it in me.

[jebreject]

I can relate to that quite a bit, actually.

[davy]

Sounds like when I realized I wasn't really a writer after all.